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All For Love !!!!
Sunday, May 31, 2009 @ 06:30
WHOO. Chelsea beat Everton !!! I am very happy, and DIVERSITY WON !!! I mean, Susan Boyle was such an incredible loser, she was the epitome of graciousness, seriously. and Diversity 100 and 10% deserved it. Aidan didn't do too well, his first 2 routines were much better but I still love him anyway and Simon's such a meanie for making him cry !!! Can't wait for next year. :)
But I think the best thing about BGT is the Audtions, you watch them make all the way to the finals, and you watch their auditions all over again, their reactions the surprise the impact, I mean, this is why BGT is so phenomenal. I hope they top the talent next year. It's made me cry at least like 4 times.
I had a nightmare about my geog test ... oh well.
I am actually free tomorrow for once so that makes me really happy. (BUT HOMEWORK OMG) You know what, I don't know if I should go to UK cuz their terms are so funny like seriously, they start in september so I'll like miss one whole term ? either that or I'll "retain", but it's like I'm born in august so it's not really considered, like so long as you're born after September it's like that but omg !!! :( I swear I don't want to retain. But anyway I have a few months more till I have to apply so BREATHE.
And, congrats Kelly for getting your tickets !!!!!! (Good luck with your fan tickets!) I swear my room needs a major clean up which I am TRYING to do. Tomorrow I've got a study date with Claire (Neighbour) which is really convienent. I've got so used to hearing people sing that when my iTunes is on I think something is playing.
if the only thing pushing us is that someday out there we'll have a better life, have a freer time, live will be better, then is it really realistic. say i'm gonna mug my head off next year and this year actually for sec three results + prelims so i can go to a good school in the UK but will it be worth it, my mind is settled, but what if it's tough to fit in etc you know.
cause we are gonna be, forever you and me always keep me flying high in the sky of love.
i'm so thankful for my friends because really really they all keep me really happy, really in check. i love lighthouse family because their songs are awesome !!!
oh yes, JUNE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE BABY! i'm actually extremely thankful because even though i've been called back until i can cry it's worth it - there are no tests. yep so i'm actually going to do a lot a lot of work etc ++ only for UK, as in to have a motivation such as UK makes me feel really pathetic etc. (but like shopping + bgt + trenches + gorge scenery etc makes it all worth it)
i swear i have to catch up on reading - reading classics magazines chick lit non fic etc !!!
HAHA OH SHIT - It's not any old football match, it's the FA Cup Final !!! Omg, Chelsea ftw + Adian = Double Victory !!!
Adain Davis has got it going on !!! I'm actually feeling really sad for Hollie but thankfully she made it and I'm so pissed of they barely gave Adain any talk cuz of what Hollie did but BY THE WAY - Greg was 2nd in public vote (as on itv's website). Adain is my favourite to win, who cares if yours is Susan Boyle. (But she's rly good) :) and It's quite annoying that judges have called 20 acts their best, and at most like 3 in one show their best. --
Today ... was a pretty emotional day, for quite a few of us, so hmm. Dominique Esther and I have said we ARE going to attempt the Ferro Roche Challenge !!! Whoohoo. In a couple of hours time the results will be out, I mean, at 5am the results will be out hoohoo, Susan Boyle or not Susan Boyle, it's been a good run chasing BGT this time, I will be back !!!. + What's with the a million billion pieces of homework, and going back to school 4 times next week, hi world, you're screwed up.
I TOTALLY THINK SHAUN SMITH SHOULD SING NO BOUNDARIES. That will be the greatest joke alright.
Church tomorrow = I am happy, starting on holiday hw I know my life sucks like that + can't wait for UMAD !!! :)
I love the BGT parallel's to the champion's league match yesterday, and since they were all BRITISH, they supported Man Utd. (SO TOO BAD). (BGT Parallel's to sports actually) "Well Tippy reminded me of Wayne Rooney in yesterday's match, he went round and round chasing the ball" "I just hope to ask everyone else to audition next year with their grandparents" Omg, I swear Callum Francis should of gotten in he is just the cutest, I mean my favourite is still Adian Davis, and I HONESTLY hope his routine is better than his audtion, because I really don't know how he's gonna top that. I'm really scared, but Callum is my second. If he becomes a West End Star I WILL WATCH EVERY SINGLE SHOW OF HIS. (I really hope you don't drop out of acting school dear!)
Chelt Ladies + St. Pauls, I think I really want St. Paul's so badly !!! Oh well, H1N1 !!!!!!
Adian please do well please please I'll be sleeping while you're performing live but anyway (HAHAHA). Tomorrow is open house so I'm praying that won't be a flop either, welcome Harriet to SCGS !!! Waking up at 6.30am tomorrow to check results then I'm gonna get read-read-readyyy. I swear Callum Francis should of made it mainly cuz he brought out the two jungle bears !!!
Alright I'm actually v. tired cause of my lack of sleep yesterday so I'm going to bed now. Toodles. :)
It's so strange. It feels really surreal, but oh well. Change is the only constant, if only constants could be more predictable.
Tomorrow there's George Sampson on BGT + Jordin Sparks on BGMT. Man Utd loss so I don't have to give up BGT anyway. And why does everyone say BGT singers should be on X Factor !!!!!! I mean if Susan Boyle was on X Factor she would of gone no where.
There's an English practice test tomorrow which I only want a pass and after that it's the holidays THANKFULLY. I have never NEEDED something this badly.
Out with Tessa Esther Dominique (who actually refuses until H1N1 is over) and a lot of camps + a lot of B@S. I cannot take this anymore I swear.
GSS starts 31st May so mmhmm !!! I really need to catch up with my honeyzz cause I haven't spoken to all of them enough like FOREVER. Quite a few CG outings so that's really good, and um, yes Liang Fu comes back so that's really exciting welcome back soon !!! :)
I swear Sims 3 in 5 days I AM SO EXCITED. BGT finals coming up soon but waiting for Adian's semis IS KILLING ME.
Alright Footdrill was actually quite fun. :) (yes call me crazieee), and yes hopefully tomorrow will be a good day because today I had quite an internal conflict, yep no need for elaboration, but anyway TGIF tomorrow so so so much because it's the freaking last day of school, and 3PR you've been one smashin' class. :)
I just love Britain. "There will be no Britain's Got Talent tonight because of the UEFA Cup Champion's League finals" (Chelsea isn't playing so boohoo! MAN U CANNOT WIN AT ALL OK. IF THEY DO I GIVE UP BGT! Nah I'm kidding) "15 million people and that's the best I(Ant&Dec) can come up with" "15 million people and that's the best you (Amanda) can come up with!!!" Today's results weren't so exciting, I've never followed anything as closely as this I am obsessed luckily school is ending.
I absolutely loved school today. The amount of noise made in 3PR after PW was extremely awesome, I think it was like a billion decibels. I love it when we get high and crazy just like that because that's what makes us us. I kinda got over the fact that physics was so tough when I was doing the paper, did it very "relaxingly", failed SS but kept laughing anyway. :) H1N1 in Singapore, I've waited for this day forever it's kinda exciting and no one really dies from it so it's not too mean to say that. :) (I mean no offence to the more serious cases and all!)
Hahaha, well I'm happy H1N1 has finally arrived because, I don't know these things excite me (cheap thrill yea but still!). Twitter makes people feel so real, like distant people. I swear London 2011 better materialise or I'll be devastated. I feel like a freaking stalker but nevermind I shan't go into that I have tamiflu I am PROTECTED against swine flu whoo! (I hope).
Alright need to print out UbD and blablabla and SPA file which I'm like super dead for so yea :(
I swear I don't know if I can believe Wikipedia or not, but it's the only site that will give me that little bit of clue into the semi finals, so if Adien is in Semis 4, his main contender is Hollie Steel, so it's basically those 2 I PRAY VERY HARD will get in.
But I honestly believe that Semi Finals 3 is totally Shaheens & MD's.
Flawless + Shaun Smith. (Amanda & Simon's chemistry is super funny). "I don't think they (Flawless) knew they had that kind of competition before (Diversity), now they know they have it, they've got to step it way up". "But I have to go with who I think did the better performance, and my heart is telling me ..."
There's a physics test tomorrow, I am ECSTATIC I passed Geography with an A1. :D I will watch all the BGMT on Saturday, before the big finals !!! (If I have the time and I cannot wait for Adian's semis!!!). Gareth is such a good loser my goodness. Tomorrow I have a physics test which I absolutely cannot fail fail fail fail. BGT makes BGT for a reason I swear I don't want Aidan to lose to ANYONE, especially not MD Dance Troupe because I think they are pretty formidable competition !!! I am so frigging scared right now. Oh okay Adian is safe if Wikipedia is right because the only competition he faces will be Greg Pritchard. :) (Darn it there's the 72 year old breakdancer). & I'm really scared Adian cannot reproduce what he's already done.
Anyway, Physics Physics Physics - my last test I have to study for this semester. I am so grateful. There's B@S 2 Interim meeting this week, quite a packed June holiday coming up, a lot of work I have to study study study for, London in 1.5 years. Think I'm going off now, really have to hit the books.
Toodles (Adian! Adian! Adian!) Oh everyone should go watch the guy with the knifes where Amanda ran off her chair and went to hide and I almost died.
Tomorrow it's Shaun Smith who's the only act I'm really looking forward too, oh wait there's flawless too so it'll probably be those 2. I'm really scared for semi finals 4.
I guess the overwhelming work wasn't too overwhelming today but I'm gonna work really hard for physics and I'm gonna pass pass pass.
White Flag is my new favourite song, it's got this very unique tone to it with a very nice voice it's really cool and lyrics are awesome and I've got the piano score hahaha.
Thank God I survived Chinese today, thankfully I had enough time.
"I will go down with this ship, I will not put my hands up and surrender I will not have a white flag on top of my door"
OH SHIT. Aidan Davis Hollie Steel and Shaheen Jafargohli ARE IN THE SAME SEMI FINALS, only 2 will go through so I'm praying it's Adian and one of the other's because he's the only dancer and the other 2 are singers and yes they're all kids and only 2 can go through and I'm so sad because I thought they'll be smarter than that :( [Of course my favourite is Adian !!! :)]
This is why I like BGT, because it's so raw, so unscripted. "For a moment there I thought I was still on American Idol, so intelligent so fast" "Hang on a moment there!!!"
"Can I just say, how sorry I am that Amanda buzzed you, I'm afraid that jealousy is a terrible thing" "I do apologise for what Piers said about Amanda's disrespectful bitchy comment"
"I think you're really talented, just not that likeable" "GASP"
"Honestly, if he wins, I will resign, it's that simple"
It's actually quite tough watching My Queen + BGT together because My Queen is so sad, but BGT is really uplifting. (even though there are numerous personal attacks going around). And as much as I loved Natalie and still do I think Diversity deserved it, it's like how I'm a Kris Allen fan that thinks Adam deserved it.
Physics test on Thursday is the last test I'll have to study for this term/semester, but it's not the last test, how cool is that?
Today's Sermon was brilliant. It really made me feel more assured, that I can truly trust in Him and to stop aiming for perfection. (Not even to that extent).
It's just my luck BGT's airing this whole week with my 2 practice tests + physics I've no clue how I'm gonna survive cause there's BGT, BGT Results !!!, BGMT, and Bai Quan Nu Wang comes out tomorrow.
I don't understand a thing about binomial, Chinese Practice Test tomorrow, first of our "Practice" tests. Oh well, I succumb to school because it isn't worth it, the thing I took away from today was that - even when we don't do it right, God still does, God still does. When Sin pulls us down, Grace pulls us up, and the amazing thing about grace is that we get it, because God gives it to us, and not because we work for it.
It made me cry haha and Eugene the Libarian didn't get through !!! :( Alright looks like I can sleep relatively early last week of school I WILL PULL THROUGH.
I feel terrible right now, and I'm incredibly irritated at my sister because I mean if she didn't know what it meant to me that's one thing, but the fact that she could allow her to draw on it really pisses me off, I mean she didn't even ask me for freaking permission I am so pissed off I could actually burn those pages and I haven't felt this amount of anger in a long time, I feel so disappointed in myself, I really haven't felt this disappointed in myself EVER before, I swear. I think it's this feeling that when you get older, it kinda runs in you. I'm starting to appreciate whatever they've done for me more, but like. I swear, I am incredibly annoyed alright.
And I have a good feeling work is going to drown me especially in term 3. BGT makes anyone feel better, they are so inspiring. BGT's music also very good :) I think I'm going to sleep before 12 today, wake up @ 7.30 am tomorrow. But I think I should finish chemistry before I sleep. Then tomorrow I'll have to do A Math I really hate myself when I just have terrible self discipline.
I need an iPod classic, Princess Diaries 2 soundtrack, Tempted, Adored, Take A Chance On Me, The History Of Love, Take A Chance On Me and to sleep before 11pm. (I also need Sims 3 !!! 2nd June). I think I feel better now, oh well, we all learn. I would do well with a napsack and a bookshelf and you know what nevermind. Guitar Hero World Tour + Wii Play + Wii Fit + We Ski 2 :)
Happy Belated Birthday Sarah !!! I miss you a lot because you haven't been coming to my house to sleep over and my mario kart misses you too so COME SOON. I'm sorry I didn't wish you on your actual birthday cause I lost your phone number when I changed phone so sorry !!! :( But anyway you're the greatest bestie hahaha. :) & COME SLEEPOVER SOON SRSLY !!!!!!! I've got lots to tell you and I know you've got lots to tell me too HUH !
I think I'm going to sleep pretty soon, today was pretty unproductive but really fun nonetheless, tomorrow and Sunday is rush math and chemistry and ss above all so that really sucks. I have no clue how to do any binomial theorem etc.
But anyway BGT > AI so much because it's so much more unscripted the talent pool is like amazing and they're so funny and relaxed unlike AI, their hosts are awesome and their conversations are brilliant they're like all stand up comedians. Amanda is a really good judge to (paralelled to Paula), Simon is much better and Piers is just nonsense. Adien Davis Shaun Smith Susan Boyle Air-O-Smith Faces Of Disco MD Dance Troupe Natalie Orki and many more. I'm so going to miss this when it's over and it's going to be over next week because the last auditions air tomorrow, live semi finals all the way until the 29th and finals on the 30th, which means by Sunday the 31st, we'll know the winner. Oh dear tomorrow they're gonna cut off the semi finalists which kinda scares me a lot I think it'll be much harder to do than AI.
I should be sleeping now, at least in 15 minutes because I have to wake up @ 6.30am tomorrow to support Esther Lyeann Dominique @ Guides South Div Day. Alright, back on track. Chords on guitar, Chords on piano.
I'm watching the Final Results of American Idol, Kris is THE American Idol yozz, so yes I'm really happy, but it's kinda nostalgia. I really miss them all, I think Alexis Grace should of lasted longer I hope Adam Lambert goes far because he is truly truly good and I can just watch it again for Jason Mraz who in my opinion is a musical genius. They played so much I think their coordiation and cheoreography was excellent I can watch it again but it makes me feel so culturally deprived like what on earth why am I wasting my time so I do have the travelling bug and the out of the ordinary bug.
We almost made a successful flight today just that we circled the runway 3 times and couldn't find it so gave up and landed on the ground next to the houses, taxied around on ground to find the runway but still couldn't, so too bad for us then we'll never be pilots hehe.
Tomorrow I'm only needed in school @ 9am so I'm happy about that !!! Means 1 ++ extra hour of sleep whoo, but I've got a ton of work to do do do and I better stop strumming my guitar soon because it puts me off a lot of work and I shall play with that and Sims 3 and The Revelation soon enough because June Hols are in ONE WEEKKK. I waited forever to get there and it's like ONE MORE WEEK. Whoo.
Now that AI's over, BGT = (y) (y) !!! [Adien Davis all the way]
I think it was the right choice to listen to Kelly Clarkson's debut album again, her songs are really good. American Idol (8) finals tonight, Team Kris Allen everyone !!! :)
I realise that I'll never be able to make it as a pilot because I can take off but I cannot land so all your lives are in peril. And this is just with a joystick. I would not like to be responsible for 500 peoples lives, and I wanted to crash into a house but ended up crashing into the tree. So I can't be a terrorist either. Oh well, that's not too bad.
Kris Allen is my American Idol !!! I think the 3 Gossip Girl real life couples are really cute except maybe Jessica & Ed, and 90210 couples are really cute too omg, really really they own. But I realise I have been lagging behind in 90210 because the Dixon Silver fight turned me off and DUSTIN MILLIGAN is no longer in Season 2 so that's really sad. :(
Alright my guitar is offically my best friend and I shan't let it distract me too much until 22:30 then I shall go sleep because I feel so dead and tomorrow I will finish Chemistry & Math in the morning and Physics & Geog in the afternoon and Friday - Sunday will be my Physics & Chinese Chiong ah days. (Oh and A Math Teehee & SS.) Darn maybe I shall finish math now.
My new shampoo smells nice !!! :) I think I'm decided on London, but I'm so scared it's just because the grass looks greener, I mean I've experienced it myself and yes it was nicer but there's tons to be apprehensive about but I'm pretty sure it'll be the right choice. So now, which school?
I think music & arts & culture really uplifts me, and I realised that if I become real good with my guitar chords I may just be able to compose songs. :) Photog too, omg thank God there's so much meaning coming back into my life now, why I want to travel. Suddenly it's all back, *phew*.
Britain's Got Talent is awesome, this makes me want to go to London even more.
He is brilliant, seriously. YOU MUST WATCH !!!
I think I'm slowly picking myself up from where I left of last year, I'm starting to get back into the mode where I do what I want because it's one life.
Sometimes, just sometimes, I ask myself - "What on earth have I been doing, why have I just wasted so much time", and then I get worried.
Because when it's music that touches the heart the most, you won't be able to feel anywhere near the way I feel just because that feeling is so unique to me. Sometimes I really feel I should do more to be able to play better in all 3 instruments because I really really love music, in all aspects (or in most aspects), that it makes me feel so disappointed to be so messed up in so many ways.
KELLY TAN I HOPE YOUR ANKLE IS FEELING BETTER !!!!!! :)
Today's lit passage was above all, really sad. "This way to the gas, ladies and gentlemen." I think it evoked every single sympathetic thread out of me I couldn't spot the tension, but let me tell you that if you're looking for a way to die, gas chambers ain't the answer.
Tomorrow there's no school and so today feels like a Friday which makes me really happy even though there's tons to do this week because, I don't know, projects always seem more overwhelming than normal work and after that there's this whole phase of practice tests I'm not sure how I'm gonna manage but I will, I promise you I'll make it out.
I think I'm feeling better these few days and I promise you I won't die @ the age of 27, and I hope I won't die of cancer !!! :( But anyway I think cg really perked me up yesterday and even though sometimes I feel like I'm drowning that sucks but etc etc I guess we've just got to live with it.
And the harder I fight, the more I feel I'm failing, the more I push, the more I think that you're repelling from me.
I really want to live life the way I used to, to be so impulsive but no one would care alright, I swear I'll live like that the moment Business@School frees me.
I think the recent _____ proved my previous post's point, you better start changing your system before this becomes habitual. --
Today's church was interesting, CG was good fun actually the guys were quite hilarious. "I thought you were hanging out with all the girls because you were a ladies man, but it turns out that you're gay!" "Can you imagine ___ painting his nails !!!" (HAHA no offence okay !!!) (: (But anyway that cheered me up.) & Thanks Marcus for accompanining me for lunch haha you were awesome.
I should find some meaning in life because it sucks to be so aimless and you know what I really can't be bothered anymore and I hate feeling this way and I think my grades are going to freefall down because I feel bad for myself and self pity is the worst. I hate feeling apathetic but the problem is when I feel apathetic, it's just, so.
The thing is, when you get concerned I don't know how to react, I don't know how it feels. I'm gonna be rich and work a glamourous job. Before I decide to give that all up and work with kids in Africa/South America. You know what, maybe I want to have kids, but the decision is still @ no for now.
Blessed be Your name, On the road marked with suffering, Though there's pain in the offering.
I went really high this afternoon, and last Friday @ Business so that's good hehe, I'm happy about that, I think I shouldn't stress myself out too much just keep focused, stop watching too many dramas, know that I'm capable of doing well. Restaurant City makes my com lag so I gave up on that too. :(
So it's been a good Saturday, I got to sleep in and got 11 hours of sleep without anyone breathing down my neck for me to wake up or do work etc, at least next week I'll get a ... okay nevermind. I was thinking of writing somewhat break but obviously not and what on earth is wrong with my firefox.
My computer has been really laggy recently and I bet it's due to my over playing of restaurant city (!!!) I swear school has been the meanest thing especially business and I hate to complain about these things but let me warn you that even if you successfully turn us into robots, robotos do fail one day too. Then you'll see how cruel you've truly become.
I really want to migrate when I grow up, to see the sun rise every day in front of my eyes, to watch the sunset in a hammock on the patio next to the beach, to read, to enjoy, to travel. To do what I'd love to do and not let me be reduced to your slave, my choice is minimum alright. It's quite tiring and I know it sucks to be complaining about this. I guess the only compensation is that it may equip me later, but in case you want to know the reason people can't be bothered with JC/Uni, it's this.
I guess I should face this because if not I will just fail so I better make the most of what I can and start being more on task and stop getting distracted because that will just kill me and I've got to answer to so many people I will crack but just not yet. I will keep going but you better pray I don't break, because if one day I decide to give up I'll just dive in until I go mad.
Tomorrow's Sunday, thank God for that - I need to get Esther & Cheryl presents. Birthdays are enjoyable, and they're really good fun too, they are something worth enjoying :)
"I want to run through the halls of my high school, I want to scream at the top of my lungs, I just found out there's no such thing as a real world, it's just a lie you've got to rise above"
Listen to No Such Thing by John Mayer, it's really good (y), and encouraging. :) Toodles !!!
Alright, so it's 2 more weeks till my one month break and I suppose I have so much reason to be happy just that I'm occupied like 3 weeks out of 4, and I don't know if there'll be UMAD anymore because Malaysia has H1N1 and even if there is I really can't stand the risk of H1N1 so yea. I really wanna see when schools are gonna close cuz it's totally gonna become a pandemic and it will totally come to Singapore and we're never gonna drop the Yellow Alert anytime soon so hehehehe.
I will do a complete post today because there have been so many incomplete ones hehehe, but yes there have been a lot of distractions and I need to prioritise better better better because I know that I can do a lot more with my time ok ok ok !!!
Last peer leading session, I guess I'll miss them, cause they were really fun and super duper cool!!! Business@School & practice tests, I find school so meaningless it's really hard to motivate myself because I think what I'm learning is total bullshit. But I still have to say my friends are awesome because they're so funny & always always brighten up my day (:
I need to get a lot a lot a lot of presents which means i = brokezz, which isn't fun alright alright alright !!! Unseen lit test, how am I supposed to score :( I hate the system la it's so screwed up but what amuses me is how our generation are such individualistic thinkers, cause I imagine if it were our parents time they'll totally just follow it cuz their like that so I think this generation amuses me A LOT.
I should make a habit out of reading good books, I'm still pondering London because I don't know if it'll be any better and I think I want to stay for a while till uni but I'm so scared I won't get into a good one, but even more scared I won't like what I do.
I hate how everyone abuses what we're given, E learning week, what the hell ? I'm too sick of this to continue, one day you'll see me take flight.
I feel like taking a nap but I'm not so sure if that's ideal because I'm quite scared I'll be wasting a lot of precious time that I should use to study geography or do geography homework because it's all calling me call call call.
Restaurant City still has its appeal, which in my situation isn't very ideal either but oh well, anyway I don't know what I'm doing tonight but I know I've got to get started on my E Math file before Ms Lin kills me hehehe.
I think, maybe I should take a trip to Africa and see what "life sucks" really means. I think my apathy will kill me and why does my foot hurt so much :(
John Mayer is really good hehe, I have 13 minutes to complete this post because I started at 12nn and I'm completing it @ 10pm I need Cheryl to help me a lot tmr cuz I realise how little math work I've done :(
My restaurant cannot handle it's demand, and my waiter is being overworked. It's like how teachers treat us with homework or how the ministry treats us with O' (@#$%) levels. Long weekends are somehow a curse instead of a blessing, 3 tests next week will I live live live ?
Geog SS E Math I will conquer you because you cannoott bring me down !!! And I think I'm seriously considering UK @ JC level but I don't know how I'm gonna get in and how I'm gonna continue piano and I think I want to go to ACS (I) but I don't know don't know don't don't know know.
I'm getting a tad bit more hardworking but I need to lose weight (!!!), and I need to do B@S and ensure it's done soon soon soon. I will enjoy myself later I will I will I will. There are a million practise tests coming up and it looks like my life really lacks substance.
Going out on Monday, need to get presents for my peer juniors (!!!) I will make a good effort to get a lot a lot of nice things for them hehe allowing me to miss half my CE periods has been true fun.
I think I'm going out for lunch later there's so much I need to complete yet I don't feel like doing it but there's this pressing urge saying if you don't do it you'll die etc.
I have Claire De Lune score, my aim is to master it by next year, be able to play it fluently by this year. Yes it's that hard !!!
Long weekend ahead, tons of subjects to mug for no fun at all at all at all. I need to find a book of substance to occupy whatever time I may have on the bus etc, reading Chinese (???), is it really my only hope sigh life sucks.
Kelly Tan came back to school today, there's finally some enthusiasm/life in class whoo! (and I've no clue what that "hell" was so yes my literature is that bad). I will get my bronze soon soon soon it's not that hard anyway, then I'll get silvarr and gold and I'll be champion !!!
Ah well, I'm rather tired/zonked/(whatever appropriate word), we may be getting a math tests tomorrow so I pray I'll pass, B@S B@S B@S whatever my life is filled with the same things same same same so boring aiyo.
I've to start being less confused and find my ground once again. Honestly I hate losing it because it makes me feel so terrible, so useless so worth nothing and I know it's not good God doesn't want me to feel that way and I can't let the devil win.
While everyone is laughing at my silly charade-ing, I'll like to illustrate why we got 5/26 for the team round !!!
HOTA - Human Organ Transplant(s) Act CTE - Centr(al) Expressway AWARE - Association Of Women Activist Rights Establishment MINDS - Ministry Of Development and there's one more acronym, but I cannot remember what, tell me if you do !
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And I think the title "practice tests" are the worst and most obvious excuse anyone can get. I mean if you want to give us MOCK EXAMS, call them MOCK EXAMS.
Haha episode 23 of gossip girl scene when Georginia Sparks was re introduced was so funny. O_o this episode is good good good !!! OMG !!! What is Chuck's problem !!! (I'm beginning to think that Poppy & Gabriel aren't lying anymore). AND WHAT ON EARTH ?! Why did her mum arrest her :( Gossip Girl is so confusing boohoo! Oh shit oh shit oh shit (!!!)
I have quite a lot I want to do, I've managed to be a bit more productive cuz I found a nice study corner in my room which is pretty tiny but i'm not distracted at all so that's good !!! Except if I plug in my iPod and close my door I can't hear anything outside and my parents have to come in and shout at me.
I better start working harder because school is not getting any easier. I really wonder if I'll enjoy working more, because I know there are people who do, and honestly speaking I think I'll be one of those (rare) people. I'm having massive fun at school nonetheless, tomorrow is humanities quiz pray we do well haha, at least not last but it looks like we may just be last because we're like 3PR and the other sec 3 class is 3SY and the 2 others are in sec 4.
I want to sleep. I realise how montonous our lives are, there's nothing much to look forward to. I want my Sims 3 quite badly, a month till I get it. Oh have I mentioned how I have the best friends in the world ?
"You'll marry for money!" "Nah, she won't" ... "She'll marry for fame!!!"
Haha, but they're really funny still, so I'm thankful :). A Math was alright, please don't let me get anything below an A for chem because chem is still chem I cannot afford to do badly for chem chem chem. Tomorrow is a rather slack day, because wednesdays are always slack days, HUMANITIES QUIZ (!!!) :O.
Sigh, Presentation 1 was yesterday, it wasn't too bad I suppose, at least all 3 teams have a much clearer idea of what's required etc etc etc. Teeheehoohaa. Maybe I'll take a nap, maybe I won't. I need a good book good good good book!, I also want to know how to make lemonade in glass pitchers, some al fresco pasta dish or something.
I actually finished my A Math homework, and I found a rather cosy study corner in my room. I decided in June I am going to tidy up my room because it's really cluttered with a million billion things.
787 cases, there's more than just one in Hong Kong please. This week I have A Math, and a full school week. The next 2 weeks won't be a full school week, this term is passing so quickly I can't grasp anything yet. Reality passes by so quickly I don't catch anything anyway.
These 3 days have been good. I went on retail therapy and I have to say I feel much much much better, but I think I'll feel a lot better if my computer was actually in my room AND AND if my room was much less cluttered, I'm going to ask for a small bookshelf already I can't stand it my desk will look like 100000 x neater if I had a bookshelf next to my desk! (IKEA HERE I COME)
In term 3 and 4 I'm going to be the mugger hero and I really need money to support myself this June holiday because I'm finally going to get Sims 3 AND MY PAIR OF SHOES & A BAG. Boohoo. *Sigh*, I need new clothes, I need H1N1 to stop spreading (to pigs too!), and I need a smooth smooth week. I need to speak more Chinese because I have a darn hard Paper 2 mock test on the 25th of May which is 1.5 hours long !!! Tell me how to survive, how to pass. :(
I have a feeling I've signed up for something to which I'll dedicate 4 days but not enjoy at all, I really hope things change.
615 cases worldwide, CNN calls it a pandemic. (It's not only stars that get media attention).
When I reach 25, I'm going to submerge myself in the culture of the world, it's interesting to see what we're missing, just being enclosed in our own little bubble. It's about time I search the world for myself to see.
I need to start on A math, I'll start on that at 7.30pm (+- 15minutes). I need to find something substantial to occupy my time. I found extremely close and incredibly loud today, decided it was too heavy for me to read anytime soon, shall probably buy it later on in the year and take it to NZ.
I should make better use of my guitar that's sitting beside my bed, I can't believe I can't play anything when the guitar is capable of so much more. Read + Music, maybe I should make a hobby out of scrapbooking ? Photog, I want a hammock.
I already figured out my study corner for next year, it's in the living room, staring right out to the view outside, I think it'll work, it looks kinda pretty.
Ah well, time to get started. (Eagerly awaiting Sims 3, my life is so boring now)
If I could walk on water, Tell you what's next, Make you believe, Make you forget.
South Korea + Hong Kong, H1N1 is in Asia (!!!)
I had a terrible 1) Sleep last night, and 2) Dreams. I haven't had such bad dreams in a long long long long time. I really must get started with studying & homework & bronze & sliver. It's so tiring draining and sometimes I just want to give up.
I'm going to Raffles City later (sorry Kelly), and I'm going to get my Moleskine (that I've been longing for so so so long) & maybe Jason Mraz or Rachael Yamagata, and probably a bit more. I'm such an impulsive spender, sigh. I really need to go out with my friends, but school's hitting so hard it's so difficult to do so, now I have to memorise geog & ss in one week ?!
Okay I'm back! AND, I have Rachael Yamagata, Lenka AND MY MOLESKINE. Which is basically all I wanted to buy (and a couple of envelopes). I'm offically broke so that's really sad. Looks like I'm gonna just havta keep saving up. Looks like my shopping spree ends here, and I have to start studying like crap for my next 5 tests over the next 2 weeks, and my A Math is terrible, so :(
Good luck to me, Good luck to me. I will pull through, School - will you be closed ?
Come on get higher, loosen my lips. Faith and desire, the swing of your hips Pull me down hard, and drown me in love.
"It really is all of humanity that is under threat during a pandemic"
I can't really be bothered to remember what work I have, or do it anyway. It doesn't really feel like a Saturday, I guess this is how a public holiday feels like. It's kinda a carefree, momentless feeling. Everyday in school, when I get bored of whatever the teacher is talking about, I'll stare outside for a few good moments, stare at the grass, stare at the sun in all it's fullness. It's really how sometimes these things, these things we have no control over, that show you how beautiful the world could really be, show you what the world should be, how it could of been.
It's ironic, because we all aren't meant to act, yet we all do. We don't trust enough to show our heart, to tell the world. It's understandable, really.
KELLY TAN who didn't go out today, I WENT TO TAMPANIES ONE HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Confirmed cases of swine flu worldwideincreased to 257 on Thursday, up significantly from the previous day's total of 147, the World Health Organization reported.
