This year has been @#$% (!!!) in every way possible. But because of that, it's also been the most enjoyable year, the most "screw the rules, lets have fun" year. It was a very dreary year, bleak and unforgiving. But because of that, everyone mattered a thousand times more, and I learnt tolive in the moment, which was probably the most important thing I've learnt this year. B@S was life changing, but as "I want to jump down" as it was, it was also very encouraging. I think my average sleeping time this year was 12:30am, latest was 2:30 - which Cheryl will remember fondly !!! (on a school night), and earliest was 9:00pm (when I was sick).

I guess this year, above all, I've been really silly. At the end of the year, I realised the many people who were there, and even though it probably killed them, they still were. I went on and on about how lost I thought I was, when everyone was right there. (And this is why I made it through). And through this year, the only thing I can say I've been very consistent with - is my view on love. That it is the most important emotion, and it exists. So thanks to everyone for dealing with me, who became such a wreck and reminding me how loved I am. (Even though I cried and cried - esp faithfulness haha)

Of course, thank God for not giving up on me. Because I swear I've been terrible this year.

So thanks to all of you. Very very much - to the people in 3PR, in B@S (all 18), of course to my team, to faithfulness, to CYM, to the people at breakfast (and recess), to my ex classmates, to my new friends in 2009, to the friends I've lost (maybe we'll come back), to everyone else who's played a part (and there are a lot more), to those I've met under funny circumstances. There are many special people too, who have played a bigger part than not, and for that I am too, very very grateful.

But I guess one thing I saw in a lot of people I look up to (especially in church), is that we're all human, and we're only human. So I began to accept that. I didn't really see it as "they've changed", but they're just human, and it's alright. (It's not a bad thing actually, y'know?)

To those who have migrated (or migrating) ... well ... thank God for internet, hmm?

So ... bring on the new year. I'm not ready, and never will be (as I've learnt), but one way or another, I'll start living in it, and I'll become part of it. How it unfolds, I really have no clue. I only can hope - #1. I'll be a happy kid, and #2. I'll keep all the awesome people around me.

And this year, as good (and bad) as it has been, will only live to be, "the year before". But for every moment of it, I thank everyone, and anyone who has been a part of that. As they say - It couldn't have happened without you.

Like I told Juls, every year can only get better than the next. And by the time the end comes, it will have been a good year. (Thankfully)

And in all honesty, the one thing I'd like to learn next year is to not look back/learn to deal. (I've got pretty tired of making resolutions, so I'm only making funny things). Ignoring the fact that it's my O @#$% levels, or my last year in SC (which has been amazing, at least the last 3).

And y'know what - I realise how much I've grown this year. Right now, as I've gotten my bubbly optimistic spirit back, I realise it's a so much more "matured" spirit. I guess I am thankful for that. ;)

So 2010, promise me you'll be a good year. :)

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Cheers! - To all of you who had the patience to read this, have a good year too alright?