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Sunday, January 31, 2010 @ 22:00
right now i want to be ignored, i want my face to know how to express indifference, i want to collapse to the floor and not care about what's going to happen the next morning. i want to sleep tomorrow away. i want to do what i want.
i think next time, i'll try living alone - not completely though, make new friends, see how it is. probably in europe, my favourite continent in the world.
i guess the one thing i appreciate about my family is that they don't really bare grudges as much as i do. i'd say i'm the most spoilt one in my family, and i like being that spoilt kid. so they're already over something when i'm still @#$%, @#$%, @#$% !!! about it.
i can't believe it's february tomorrow, january passed really quickly and the sad thing about it is that it felt largely unproductive and i don't see myself anywhere nearer those 8A1s but screw that. mm, it was a good month - felt really happy most of the time. bad end to it but i guess it doesn't really matter.
God has been so faithful and so gracious - that really reassures me I guess. I prayed for a good 2010, 1/12 of its up (feels like a few days tho) and yes it's been good. It helps just to know He's there and He has delivered, and will deliver. It's so scary how fast this year passed yet we (i) didn't realise it. i guess it's good this way too.
florence + the machine (y). I am in love with her/them.
Saturday, January 30, 2010 @ 23:00
i'm not a superhuman you may be selfish, but i'm selfish too.
tgif x4. this week was bearable, and made better (well) w/ the company of good people. right now, i need to pass my violin exam like abcdefg, and read more. 2 weeks to cny, 5 tests.
justine henin is such an inspiration. (: joshua radin + jj are so therapeutic.
watched New York, I love you - good show but rather messy couldn't really follow. :( mm but star studded cast (y). Coming up - VALENTINE'S DAY: Taylor Swift + Taylor Lautner.
mm i want to read atonement (which i'll probably to during cny) + another fiction book. photography in perth.
10 hours of sleep today!
Thursday, January 28, 2010 @ 21:27
convention makes life tiring. it's friday tomorrow. who cares about paul and his wheel !!! @#$%.
this weekend will be intensive chinese - although it may not help, it's still a reason to convince myself to do so, 4 hours + + + of violin practice. (my aural's slowly improving, thanks be to God). and there's not too much work.
iPad was released, i am excited :-). sometimes, you really really really disgust me. i don't think i can live in singapore in my uni years - there's just too much more outside this country, and at an age where you can actually explore it - i shan't waste time.
sleeppppp.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @ 20:40
the irony of life - everywhere/anything. tablet mac comes out today(tomorrow) it's 4.41am in San Fran, the apple tablet being released at 9,10 San Fran time? inspire me - photog/guitar/piano/string quartet/ensemble/ORCHESTRA.
i have a very good feeling that based on effort alone, my expo paragraphs deserve to fail, and thus they probably will. and based on my physics results, i'm probably going for remedial - this is not how it's supposed to work out :( but it doesn't matter la :-).
January's almost over - but it kinda feels like I've made no progress/not anywhere closer to my 6. I've started having migraines, which really sucks ttm, but I'm off coffee/caffeine. It's sad b'cuz I feel myself burning out already, and I'm not even putting in 100%, far from it, actually. Especially when I know a lot of times I choose not to do much.
"Don't you know you can go and be your own miracle"
Tuesday, January 26, 2010 @ 17:22
So apparently the tablet mac is being released tomorrow (27th Jan) - as what they anticipate ++ my amath needs serious help as startlingly apparent from today's trig test. I'll either pass by a bit or fail by a bit, so lets all pray it's the former yea !!! - and I really really want my acoustic now, especially to play "Hallelujah" - one of the best.
I find writing lit essays strangely therapeutic, so is listening to JJ, and sleeping I s'ppose.
And company with the some of the most entertaining people for about an hour is really relaxing too - I guess these are one of the reasons I love SC, the people are priceless - you can basically chill out and kick back during every lesson except ... perhaps lit? HAHA. :-) - Happiness moment #1 of the day! [Jiahui "little nerd" and I are having a frienemy war, so be sure to choose me if we ask you who's the best/coolest/"insert positive word here"]
(10 - 1) month to the end of it all. Can't, but can wait. It's sick to have to find meaning/reason/something to look forward to everyday to get through it, but I guess this is the life we were meant to live - we better make it all or nothing (and suicide is never an option !!!).
My mother no longer threatens me with O level grades anymore after reading my lit and then deciding it was the bell curve that pushes us all up. So now she goes "you're taking chelt entrance you know !!!" - because my English is way below par. I need to pick up atonement + finish P&P, Blink.
Oh, and because life is too short to let one test bring you down. Live life to the fullest :D
Monday, January 25, 2010 @ 22:02
Guess what I've been playing with? :-)
 
Mm, 4 to the weekend !!! Oh, these were taken by my sister anyway. @#$% school cuz again there's so much more to life - but today wasn't too bad I guess just that it was such a humanities day + MC prac, spent 2 hours ++ standing, half the time talking to miss wong about uni + violin + bas + etc etc. :-). Can't believe I have to get through 2 tests before thursday, but glad there's no tests whatsoever on friday.
Mum read through my lit - as I let her do now - book prize winner from sec one to four can't go wrong right? - laughed at my inability and poor grammar (omg !!!) - and said I said the same thing 3 times with the same words (@#$% !!!) :-( - and she said she's gna sit down w/ me to do it chapter by chapter like O_O.
Can't wait for CNY ttmzxz. (: - so glad parents didn't go for parents briefing or what it is.
Saturday, January 23, 2010 @ 22:31
i. love my dress/blouse ii. got a new half sleeve jacket from japan and it's amazing. iii. almost convinced parents to get prom dress from Milan but found out we're going too late anyway. :-( i'll still get good clothes though !!!
so ho, today was a fun day of chillin' out at liyan's with like quite a lot of people + guitar heroing our way through, doing v. little homework, making my tutor stay back like half an hour cuz the stupid comprehension was like some lit passage and i spent like 45 minutes trying to figure it out !!! :-(
then tomorrow there'll be church + hw chionging b'cuz i've been a little too slack this week, oh well - we deserve to kick back and screw things sometimes. haha.
loved hope for haiti now. - brilliant effort + 100% of the aid BETTER GET THERE. this has been a good year so far (y)
cheers !!!
Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 23:56
i don't know if you read my blog, but since i'm actually talking to you now, i'll say this again.
don't ever, ever, ever think of killing yourself. you're so young and you have no idea what the world has in store for you - all your problems now, are trivial. people in earthquake zones are fighting for their lives and here you are wanting to give it up. please don't. it's not worth throwing yourself away for minor things. and your life won't be forever bad - there's the good and the bad. and we've got to learn to deal with that. so please, don't.
Thursday, January 21, 2010 @ 20:32
I've never struggled w/ aural my entire life, and I approach grade 7 and go "WHAT?!" - so basically today was a intro to G7 aural, a bit too late I have to say + a huge failure at trying to sing the lower key + everything and anything ... + exam's in end feb/early march and I really, really, really don't want to fail but @#$% !!!
Liyan's party + Dad's graduation on Saturday - 2 parents who've graduated from Bible School. ;) Chem + Emath tomorrow, 1 day more and we're done w/ the week bb! This week actually passed pretty quickly.
Priorities now - A1 for Chinese + Pass violin G7.
Oh, and I really hate Thursdays, we stay back until who knows when + we have an insane amount of work to complete b'cuz everything's either due on Friday or Monday.
Live life on a high, never ever let yourself be down for too long a time or else you'd just have wasted those moments.
(And nothing's ever okay till the world caves in).
Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 21:43
I kinda miss my parents, family. They give me that sense of security that they'll always be there, and that despite anything they're the only ones who can and will forgive under any kind of circumstance. Right now (but not (and never) always), they seem to epitomise kindness. In the world out there of harsh expectations and dog eat dog, they're the only people who give you that "you'll be fine".
But school and 2010 in general so far has been a really good year, and so for that I am extremely thankful. (especially compared to 2009 !!!)
We're all living for the weekends though - and right now, the weekends are seriously, seriously comparatively shorter ... nothing interesting really happens in school, it's kinda like the same repetitive cycle except maybe the conversations w/ friends +++. Today I found out most of us want to do U in UK - ie lse/imperial/oxbridge ... and medicine + law?
I pray everything works out for everybody this week - because once in a while, life deserves to throw us a good week out for once.
@ 20:36
I want more time, pretty please?
Monday, January 18, 2010 @ 18:36
I want to watch The Blind Side and I'm so glad Sandra Bullock won !!! + I think I should really catch Avatar ... hmm. Anyway yea to Avatar, Sandra Bullock and Meryl Streep. Golden Globe winners were (y).
10 more months + 1 entrance exam and then we'll see if i can go over - live life in a place with 4 seasons, where everything else/studies is encouraged a little bit more. + I think the only reason I want to do well is so I can get into ACS(I) if nothing else and then LSE.
+ + I need to put in a lot more effort for lit because it deserves the effort together w/ amath and chinese (and I suppose SS too) ... because I think ultimately if I don't get into LSE = no overseas experience = really sad. :(
And y'know what, even if I have to live a 'lil on the outside with you guys, I'm going to make it. I think I've given up trying to change things when all of you are obviously unwilling to do so for whatever the reason, and it's sad because I used to be as close as you all were and you probably still think I am (or not), but whatever. I'm too tired to try and if you guys can't bother then I'm sorry to say but I won't either - because I did, I gave my entire soul but you guys did nothing, I know it's not your fault, but I'm just not going to do anything anymore. '
Oh, but (and) today, God delivered.
2 weeks to lose myself (but probably not at 16). I think when I turn 20, I'll travel around for 2 weeks hanging out with the locals of a faraway place, with a blank notebook and a really good playlist + my slr & hopefully a macbook. (HAHA sorry couldn't resist). Then I'll go around and learn what life really is.
Sunday, January 17, 2010 @ 16:35
I doubt I'll ever be able to trust you ever again.
Coming up - week 3/10 of term 1/4. 5 more days till the weekend again. I don't remember ever ever living for the weekend so much. I mean school's fun with the people and all but it's so exhausting and the pressure is insane. @#$% We're 16, not superheroes but "if your seniors could do it so can you".
Right, I really really really need to start QT 2010 !!! At this rate I'm going no where. Which is rather disappointing because at least last year I could keep up.
Books + music + journaling/writing + dreaming + travelling + sketching + good company + good food + nice clothes = good life.
10 more months till we're done here which seems like a little too long, that being said - I'm extremely thankful for the company + + + because they make life so so so much better.
Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 19:08
right now i really hope i'm making a mountain out of a molehill (!!!) - i'm damnnn screwed but i shall not think that cuz my God is bigger than everything in the whole entire world and beyond. :( :( :( - and technically i should be thankful cuz there are the people in haiti as well, i'm still living and still breathing - and still able to see light. (so if anything) - yet every once in a while we screw up life not because we want to but because it's a given.
there are a gazillion tests next week and i dare not imagine how insanely tired i will be - given that this week i was barely able to open my eyes by 9 and slept at an average of say, 12? human strength + stamina has it's capabilities.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus
Phillipians 4:6-7, although "even though i walk through the shadow of the valley of death" may be more apt haha ;)
I will conquer on Monday (!!!) - then there's Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday.
I have 在我身边 on repeat and it's one of the nicest sweetest songs I've heard (ie I've found a new show toooo!)
Friday, January 15, 2010 @ 21:46
always stay true to how you feel - you feel because you're human, once you deny the right to feel the way you want to feel, it's not really you anymore because you can never express yourself or say what you want to say.
emotions will screw with us but that's all part and parcel of life/growing up. so stay strong as you grow and learn but know that one day this will all make sense so never, ever, ever give up on yourself or else you've just wasted what could have been amazing.
@ 20:50
tgiffff again so so so much.
I really really really need sleep + teachers have got to start realising we're 16, have 24 hours in a day and cannot expect the world of us. We're human and we have limits, something's gotta give - and we're already giving in sleep - a basic need.
But all that being said I still have to be really really thankful that all the people around have been great and preventing me from collapsing into pieces. And for those of you who think you can eat more than 7 Ferro Roches in a minute -you're probably wrong. ;) - I ate only one HAHA.
And I became mesmerised by the image formed by the lens while trying to find the focal length - in a dark room everything behind you reflected in black on white was so so so pretty, and every little detail. If you'd just move it'd change yet be a really pretty change too.
Oh, and I'm pretty surprised at how easy it is to let go of you, I thought I'd never be able to but now it seems easier than ever which is pretty sad, yet pretty good at the same time b'cuz you were so important to me but now you've just dropped of and I guess it's sad that you can leave just like that, but it's also not so because at least I won't be missing you ever so often.
AND THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO BUY + WANT TO DO. Life sucks when all this inspiration comes when you have absolutely no time at all to do any of these !!! @#$%.
I've started to realise that weekends are actually really short cuz even though there's no more bas there's still remedial till like, 4pm-ish. I guess there's much to be thankful about though - just like how we're not like the Haiti victims suffering from the devastation of their earthquake.
This week in one word = tired. :(
Thursday, January 14, 2010 @ 19:53
Soon (and at this rate) we're all going to crash and burn. To believe that everything will only get more intense, I don't know how we're going to survive anymore - in all reality.
Everyone has their right to do what they want - because you control yourself. What you do to us we don't have a choice, but once you suppress our freedom of speech, then that's different.
Today I just feel unfulfilled despite it being a good day - I'm just so tired and it's so difficult to get everything you want done and sometimes despite it being the truth that what you've got has been brought on by yourself - still !!! :(
I honestly can't wait to sit that entrance exam and try my luck at running the country for J1 >. Life looks a 'hella more promising on the other side, but then again everything does. I need to switch from coffee to red bull sooon.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010 @ 19:48
I love AI auditions + Glee. (And Victoria Beckham's accent!)
Today I realised I better buck up because I can't continue this way - from C-ing Chinese to almost failing A Math, something's gotta change if I want my ACS(I)/7-8A1s. 8th day of school and everyone's already collapsing on the floor + this is supposed to be "easy on us" @#$% !!! :( And every single other subject is also deproving so this is not the trend I'm supposed to be following or I'll be screwed. Chinese in 5 months !!!
Coffee count : 3 !!! (which sucks) - teachers should cut us some slack, but I don't suppose they achieve their @#$% high distinction rates by "cutting us some slack"
I actually need more feel good songs. School's pretty interesting these days haha, it's quite amusing to sit back and watch and laugh about it when no one else really cares. + Make a proper playlist sigh.
I don't know how we're gonna make it through these 10 months - at least the people in school make it really interesting haha love 'em !!!
I learnt that strength is something you choose.
Monday, January 11, 2010 @ 17:08
Congrats to everyone (and thanks for the free day off!) especially 4PR 2010! I hope regardless of what you've got you'll be thankful + remember that it's never the end !!! ;)
And seeing everyone and they're reactions today really scared me quite a bit, it felt a hell lot realer than it was last year which is really freaky, and knowing it's my turn next year. I'm a 'lil more motivated now (and I hope it will last)
Can't wait to (attempt to) break a world record with Esther + Dominique !!!
Some part of me can't wait to grow up and seek the world in all it's splendor instead of living in this tiny I-don't-see-nothing country, not that it's bad, it's just limited. I think there's so much that the world holds out there and it's really sad to be here but we just live with what we get yea?
Breathe, dream - and someday we'll wake up and perhaps enjoy the life we're in.
Sunday, January 10, 2010 @ 20:19
HEY Y'ALL - ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR O' LEVEL RESULTS TOMORROW (whether it's full or chinese!!!) - I'm sure y'all will do like, amazing - and we will get another holiday !!! :)
Cheers !
Saturday, January 9, 2010 @ 13:33
Yann Tiersen is my new favourite composer. His songs are all so different but all so appealing, and and and, they're extremely difficult to play - so me with my lack of time will have to wait a long while before I can even bother to start trying. But he's really, really, really good.
I need to buy many things like ... shit I can't rmb haha. And I need to sleep (still) and omg, I need to know what to wear tomorrow this is really really insane :( I also need to get a book and try to finish homework a little faster and play a bit more (oh I had 2 friends over tonight and we went hyper on Wii and Korean + Japanese songs !!!)
I love love love the weekends and though it's sad that we're living for 'em again, I guess its what happens in these days that make the 5 days ahead more bearable.
(And at the end of the day remember that everyone's only human). - And to the many exhausted right now, stay strong, don't give up - because it sucks to fail, and you won't. Trust, believe. You'll make it out so long as you don't let go.
+ does everyone/anyone really belong, and who are we trying to be. + let loose, be free.
I'm going to learn Canon in D + The Man That Can't Be Moved on the guitar (when I find the time to). And I really want to read though. Today was thoroughly enjoyable and this is why I love Sundays - because they never disappoint.
lesson #1, when people are "taptaping" - SABOTAGE IS KEY.
5 more days to the weekend !!!
Friday, January 8, 2010 @ 17:09
the bridge between us is a rainbow :-)
tgif x 10000000. (though there's like an insane amount of work for the first weekend of school and our physics teacher goes really fast like she's completed an entire chapter already !!!)
so the sad and awful truth is that school consumes the hella out of everyone, but at least everyone in school has been pretty whack so far, so that really makes it a whole lot more bearable.
I need shoes pronto. And I need more clothes (still). I think by the end of the year my whole wardrobe may have possibly changed. I drank 2 cups of coffee this week and it isn't the best decision but whatever. @#$% !!! (:
But thankfully I've still been feeling rather upbeat and positive - especially since I think faithfulness knows what happens when I get @#$%. (I'm reallllyyyy glad it's the weekend).
Can't wait for Australia in like ... 6 weeks time probably. And all in all, God really has been good, so that's (y). :)
Wednesday, January 6, 2010 @ 21:06
"valentine's day is coming soon!" "when's it ah, 4th November?"
... 3 days in and kelly is already making crazy statements. (but it improves the mood in school :) ).
love love love recesses with like the most awesomest of people (esp today - haha it was so funny) + breakfasts which is like the bestest way to start school.
orientation's over !!! (ie no more cheap thrills skip classes).
(this is so incoherent it doesn't make sense) - i'll post proper soon. like on tgif or something.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010 @ 20:47
@ 15:18
chiong amath what shit la !!!
teacher "girls i heard that some of you cannot finish, so can i ask for only the trigo in" part of class " WHAT THE @#$% !!!" part of class " SADRINAAA !!!!"( - eh how come she knew we couldn't finish it ah.)
my God is bigger than Os !!!
I am running out of inspiration for 365, what do you want me to take?
(btw, if you kill yourself at 13, that sucks. so don't - cuz you don't know what the world has in store for you, and it's rly sad to end it just cuz you're going through a bleak period. you'll pick yourself up eventually and things will get better, to end it @ 13 of all ages is just dumb.- and you really don't need a girl to cause your problems.)
were we meant to enjoy life? and it's sad cause we try to do things right, somehow they just end up wrong.
i'm really tired and i really want to crash right now but nooo. @#$% !!! :(
Monday, January 4, 2010 @ 16:44
So today wasn't half bad as I feared. Really glad that we're comfortable with each other now = not as awkward first days. Rather happy with the teachers we got, the sec ones tired me out to no end so now i am exhausted. (old alr), but because I hung out with the secones, I missed e math + physics (change of teacher).
And the only thing my class could tell me on what I missed was that our physics teacher went "75 is not enough!" ... it's physics eh !!! (sigh, we're in for a good year).
But I have to say, all in all I was really glad how this day turned out so Thank God (like really). And no one collected hw though many asked for it so whatever, and I really like our form + co op, though it's v. sad ms goh left :(
I'm feeling so nostalgic now, and I still miss you (and thank god you're coming back soon). And today with the start of school, the roads were once again filled with school children walking all around, and conversations full of "it's the new school year" stuff.
Mm. so apart from the like 24353 pep talks from all corners, today was pretty relaxed and rly enjoyable cuz we spent most time catching up with classmates/schoolmates, and greeting last year's teachers.
Of course we needa chiong amath so lets go everyone !!!
Cheers to many more days like this !!!
Sunday, January 3, 2010 @ 15:56
One More Day - Les Miserables Original London Cast (Present one's good too though!)
Anyway, school starts tomorrow, and once it starts there's no stop and everyone don't complete your hw please & thanks. As much as I want to see everyone in school, we're @#$% sec four as lindsay + sherms keep reiterating.
And I was telling Chloe how I like being 15/16, cuz it's a nice age. Then I asked Stacy if she liked being ... how old she is (haha), and she said no, and went
"You'll never ever be content with life, you'll always want more" "But the joy of the Lord is our strength !!!" "So ... what's valuable lesson #1?" "We'll never ever be content with life?"
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"I haven't cried this year" "Oh wait I have!, oh no I cried on the 31st" "I cried yesterday" "I cried on the 31st too" "When did you last cry?" "Um ... in primary school I think"
So right now as I chiong out whatever more I can (because I can't finish my hw) - enjoy your last day !!! :)
@ 01:31
y'know what. SCREW THIS.
i'm not gna let any sort of rubbish get me down srsly, we're all aiming for perfection - don't tell me otherwise. whether it's to yourself or for society, one way or another you're living up to somebody's expectations and that's your set of "perfection".
but y'know what, as much as i try to grow into that "perfection" thing - i'm going to have to start living life or it's just going to fly by me. and if you don't know how to, learn. learn to live. learn to start doing what you love and if it's over, it's over - there's really nothing you can do anymore because time (and this world) is unforgiving, and it waits for no one. (sadly). so don't look back, and move on - which is a hell lot easier said then done cuz it does hurt (most of the time).
i told myself in '08 that i'm not gonna regret anything - and up to this date, i haven't. (which is good), but if i don't start living i'll probably regret that, because as @#$% !!! as life is, there's a gazillion things out here in this world to enjoy and be thankful for so it's about time i started.
HELLO 6 HOUR SLEEPS !!!
... i probably have to give myself a lot more of these pep talks throughout the year.
Saturday, January 2, 2010 @ 16:33
I get through life by scraping through holiday homework. Every year I fear that teachers will scream +++ and in the end they never end up collecting it so urgently. @#$%. Just that this year I feel the same way and I'm still chionging to finish it just that I'd probably end up copying Esther's in the morning.
does that make you feel loved?
"STOP SMILING STOP SMILING (in hysterical laughter)" - Camera goes snapping away. (quite a freaky camera I have to say).
maybe one day we'll all stop playing pretend and learn to be true to ourselves, learn to speak the truth - cuz for what it's worth, maybe that's the best way for the world.
And I'd honestly say I'd like to stop trying because you've dragged me along for one year and despite the fact that you all think otherwise I'd really like to give up cuz I just see no more hope. But once more, I know I have to press on because giving you guys up just isn't worth it. Though I don't know if I'll see the day we become as close again as we'd like. Perhaps the key is to not expect. But I'll try - and hopefully I won't break. I know that if we don't make it, 10 years later I'm going to regret not trying, because you guys are so important, but I just don't know what to do.
OH OH - and I really want to watch Les Miserabes at West End (or wherever they stage it). I saw a snippet and it looked so cool. I want to watch musicals. (+ the lead guy was really cute :))
Friday, January 1, 2010 @ 17:32
(CHLOE SEND ME YOUR PHOTOS). - Oh yea, how are you gonna read this. ;)
It's the new year, and as we all know - we'd rather not grow up. But this year the thing that consumes me most is not the O @#$% levels, but the fact that it's my last year in SC which is pretty scary, cuz I remember @ P6 not wanting SC sec, but right now, I wouldn't trade it for anything.
And I guess the one thing I am so thankful for is the amount of people I still feel comfortable with. Especially Adel who I haven't talked to since P6 (like seriously haha), and June who I haven't talked to in half a year. And you have these online conversations with them and you think all's lost but in reality, nothing is.
Yet on the flip side there are a few, very few - who you can spend quite a bit of time with and you're just not that comfortable with them, and the frustrating thing is that you're supposed to.
And yes !!! 1PE gang is so awesome. This is one group who I thought it was gone as hell, but as you have reminded me, we're still doing well - and hopefully next year we'll talk more !!! I miss you guys like @#$%, and love you guys so much too !!!
Favourite quote of the start of '10. "If your heart's pumping it's you !!!"
(And Sarah - for what's worth it, he shouldn't be worth your pain and agony. Love you!)
@ 17:20
I rarely do photo posts. But, I felt like it so haha.
 
  Overnight Prayer + Watchnight !!! :)
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