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can't catch back
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moving! 3 weeks. hehehehe. silver lining you all should check out diana vickers, she's (y).... KevJumba + PapaJumba (Amazing Race 17) - GMH x 235... it's okay to fail. :') zonked o) chasing illusions

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jaded jaded
Monday, May 31, 2010 @ 18:41

jaded.

i literally have no more emotions to feel, i have lost my soul in the process of today. amath + geog work due tomorrow and i want to just ughhhh.

went out with half of the chinese class after O's, watched shrek and helped joellyn find her phone :) that was good i guess. but i'm so physically and emotionally drained. i felt like i gave it all today but i have no idea how i'm gna do and all but I HAVE GREAT FAITH.

but i have no willpower and i'm completely burnt out and i want to drop out of school and do something more useful in the world and not study one more round of chinese and see my english like shit and just drop dead and DIEEEEEE.

calendar girl, who's in love with the world, stay alive.
the last day
Sunday, May 30, 2010 @ 20:49

to: alex, marcus, tim, kian nam, marvin, linus, sherms, lindsay
joellyn, miranda, charlene, charmaine chong, charmaine lim, renee, vera, ying mei, nat yap, meiyin, christine, kelly, qiying, jiaying,

all the best for O's tomorrow - we can do it! A1 all the way. :)
remember to sleep and rest well tonight!

WE PEAK TOMORROW.

And thanks everyone for your kind smses/facebook/msn wishes. They mean a lot, really. I'll do my best tomorrow. :)
Oh, really?
Saturday, May 29, 2010 @ 08:22

So apparently, Singapore is Asia's best place to live, and the world's 28th. American cities start at 31.

Hmm.

(Bye computer! I'll see you after the 31st!)
14/15
Friday, May 28, 2010 @ 22:03



NOVEMBER TWELVTH.
(2 favourites from Australia!)
belief
Thursday, May 27, 2010 @ 22:35

'cause all of the stars, are fading away
just try not to worry, you'll see them someday
take what you need, and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out

good music makes me fall in love with the world, really. i can't wait to explore it.
rub your eyes
@ 18:12

fear, it engulfs you, eats you up, tears you apart;
what else is left, where can i go did i do that right, should i have done this better, why do you hate me, why aren't you looking at me, why is she more important, why can't i have you, why can't i be special, why couldn't i be like that, i wish i had that too, wish i wasn't here, why is life like this.

uncertain thoughts surround and suddenly you're lost in a ball, is it cloudy? maybe it's steam, fog. lost, with no direction, no purpose, no where to turn, nobody to lean on.
--

it's the end of term two, officially.
school's been good, because company has been awesome. i'm sure we've all, in our own ways, been through a lot. but at the end of the day, we've all overcome, so far, and hopefully, we're all stronger now.

mhm, but you know, sec fours know no rest - and it's pretty scary to see everybody really gearing up and getting ready to fight, even the some of the most unexpected. you don't really know what motivates you, but the sheer thought of "shit, o levels" pushes you hard enough.

chinese in four! i'm excited! (kinda, haha).

november twelvth, november twelvth, and we'll live like how we're supposed to, really.

but really, all of you make me so happy.
dear you:
Tuesday, May 25, 2010 @ 23:13

you know, i'm really glad we're having two way "normal people" conversations now, really, after all that's happened. (:

this made me cry
Monday, May 24, 2010 @ 22:01

My dad saw a homeless man digging through the trash.

He offered to buy the man food. Once he had the food he thanked my dad and turned to leave. Dad said to eat with him. He almost cried.

They ate & talked, and he tried to give my dad the only thing he had: a Beatles record.

My dad and that man GMH
you loved a people underserving
@ 17:22

what keeps me going:
sea, snow, camera, violin, guitar, piano love.
friends, family
God.

--

arrested by your truth and righteousness,
your grace has overwhelmed by brokenness

i know you gave,
the world your only son for us
to know your name
to live within the saviour's love.

i think school (toybox + a few) are so cool because they keep the monotony away, and it's like exploring new things with them everyday and all that our conversations, srsly, our conversations. literature "timed trial" today was damn joke, like seriously "damn joke", i hope they have enough compassion not to mark it because if they do there goes my ca2 ss/lit A1, and i was really banking on that tho my unseen sucks like megashit, or pbq or whatever.

this (+last) week has been so trying though, really, emotionally, physically, mentally, spiritually. i'm not cut out for this. i'm not cut out to watch my every step and think about the consequences. but screw you, the way of the world.

but anyway, through the past week or two, i've been seeing God's grace like no other, and i'm so thankful, because it's really keeping me alive.

oi you, cheer up.
what if i end up disappointing you like no other?
Sunday, May 23, 2010 @ 18:37

too much on mind, too much on mind.

this june:
- school
- ice cream dates
- htht dates.

fffuuuu
31ST MAY: PLAY LIKE DAMN SHIT PART 1.

let go let go let go let go. (!!!!!!!OAIHOGAEIHSE)
take it easy.
@ 16:24

Today I was in church, practicing for Mel's wedding, which is actually going really smoothly. The whole song's done so I'm really happy with that and I've found my guitarist and we make sense together. :) Praise God. And I'm really thankful that I've got this opportunity, cuz I've always wanted to play the violin in weddings!

But anyway, after everyone left, Stephen started to play Canon in D on the piano so I joined him on the violin, and I think that's the best thing that's happened to me in a really long time. It was so so so beautiful, and like, although it wasn't perfect, it sounded so (y), and I was so glad it was like, me playing it and not me listening to someone else play it. I'm gonna join an orchestra! And maybe next year I'll have the opportunity to play it in a string trio!

K - check list:
1. buy dress for wedding ceremony !!!
2. find another dress but like ahoshtos. - what should i wear for a wedding dinner, does anyone have dresses to lend me i don't rly wanna buy another one!

Mhm. This weekend's been (y)(y) mostly - but there's a lot of work i'm rushing now. @#$% @#$% x 1242323523.


@ 00:09

dear you,

in whatever, remember God has control, God's in control.
i'll be here too, cheer up, yes?

love,
hannah.
I see you in a different light
Saturday, May 22, 2010 @ 14:13

owl city and brooke fraser calm me down a whole lot.

things that make me really happy:
1. mass convos with toybox
2. staying up to twelve to wish someone happy birthday :)
3. making pretty letters, inside and out, and knowing they'll be happy receiving it.
4. hthts !!!
5. epic convos in school :)

things i haven't been doing that would make me even happier:
1. shooting (like @#$%)
2. shopping
3. hanging out w/ people.
4. travelling
5. shopping, in another sense.

day 2 of intensive chinese mugging camp like yeahhh.
God is in control.

mhm, so this week has been tiring, but it was summed up really nicely. mass convo yesterday from 12 - 2, happy birthday cheryl (my twin!), enjoy this year, yes? went off at 2 yesterday, didn't sleep till around 3 - wasn't tired and just sat there and thought, thought about endless things, my head was too clouded. drifted off after that. woke up at 830 actually, wasn't tired - surprisingly.

5 more months to euphoria!
i can.
Thursday, May 20, 2010 @ 23:45

"i'm an emo kid, and i'm singing!"

i'm singing to the God who brings redemption to the nations,
kings and oceans bow to him in praise
and i'm singing to the God who wrote the book on our salvation
to the one who covers me in grace,
i'm singing.

before i drop dead on the ground, remember this.

"10 DAYS INTENSIVE MUGGING CHINESE CAMP"

i'm thisss close to laughing and crying all over again.
@ 19:24

screw you, chinese o's, screw you for making me go mad and screaming "i'm a monster".

(tho it is a good way of releasing emotions)
Maybe you just weren't meant to be mine.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010 @ 17:48

But there are dreams that cannot be,
And there are storms we cannot weather.
--

Glee's I dreamed a dream is pretty impressive.

I think I've been thinking a little too much and too involuntarily these few days. It's like thinking begets thinking, so my head's a mess. And jumping around to memorise geography was extremely amusing today.

English, A Math, Chem, Chinese.

Britain's Got Talent has much less talent this year, it's pretty upsetting actually. I mean there are a few ones, but nothing "WOW."

And, I am completely in love with Jonathan Groff, who's gay. :/

drop short.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010 @ 19:14

you can get through life blaming everyone but you, but at the end of the day - if you really stop to think about it, you can only blame yourself.
--

hard work x452356.
mugging geog and i am exhausted, there's still chem amath and the never ending chinese.

"what doesn't kill me makes me stronger".
--

so it's with everything i am, i reach out for your hand,
the hope for change, the second chance i've gained
on you i throw my life, casting all my fears aside,
how could greater love than this ever possibly exist.

where a little faith's enough to see mountains lift and move.
:)
Sunday, May 16, 2010 @ 20:53

@#$%. UK IS CALLING ME.
6 months more, endure, endure. Then I'll make it mine.
--

back to geophy.
(LUV PIXIE LOTT THO).
I'm gonna make it mine.
Saturday, May 15, 2010 @ 13:06

"It's like playing hide and seek with each other. But that's the way we roll".
--

I would really like a balcony, seems like you can clear so much when you're swingin' on a balcony. Not literally, but just the solitude. Seems right.

But anyway, life has been good ever since yesterday, after going mad for a while and putting things back in perspective. It's funny how just one sentence makes everything better. Just that I have a million and two things to buy and put together by tomorrow and buy somebody's iTunes card (do they sell it!) and finish studying like ahojest. But it's alright.

And I think I want to work in an NGO now, but like Kelly (Yan) says, there's too much we wanna do in our lives, and our expectations to high !!! ;)

Shit, toybox mass convos are so epic whether they're fb/msned/facetoface it's unbelievable. Super useful as a happy pill!

But anyway, to the so many of you - stay strong. It'll happen if God wants it to happen, and if it doesn't, no matter how much it hurts. Stay strong, it'll get better.
today the world seems much brighter
Friday, May 14, 2010 @ 18:39

Intensive mugging this weekend! Gogogo!


(PS: "Mustard seed faith!").
//
Thursday, May 13, 2010 @ 19:14

If you look at it this way, I think life's pretty interesting.

There are so many which mean the world to me, like I said - those who make life so (y), just because they're there. But sometimes, we just lose the privilege of proximity. Idk, really. I hate to lose people, and it's even worse when you no longer care about losing them. Today was just a preliminary to the end of the year.

@#$%ing tired, exhausted.
Today was a day of rediscovery - I realised I still love economics, I still love politics, and I still love people. Perhaps, my soul hasn't been fully taken away yet. Please don't. I wouldn't like to forgo my soul for anything.

I've never cried so hard, not for people.

No matter how tough this world gets - never, ever, ever kill yourself. Don't even harm yourself. You'd need to respect yourself to get through all this. Really, it isn't worth it.

You never learn to fully appreciate something till it's gone. :/
gotta fight some more.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010 @ 19:48

dear boy, you're so sweet, one of the best. i hope you'll learn to love yourself a little bit more, and the people around you. because honestly, you're one of the most sincere and genuine guys i've met in a while. i feel so sorry for you because others don't really see that in you, and i think they should. behind all the nonsense you were spouting, i could see your sincerity, in what you believed, and what you didn't. and you're holding back, but stop. because i know you really love everyone a hell lot, and you really mean well.

with you, i feel real.
(this isn't a confession,
but really, i haven't felt so comfortable with someone in a long long time).
--

I miss shooting, and swimming. I think I shouldn't have given up on competitive swimming, because as much as I enjoy tennis and table tennis, it really can't compare to swimming. But anyway, not the time for this.

I think I'm gonna do the photog profi instead, just so I have the excuse to shoot this weekend. But honestly, I've done so little photog I think I've forgotten how to use the camera.

I love how we meet new people ever so often, people who make our lives so much better and endurable.
1.3
Tuesday, May 11, 2010 @ 23:07

I see the best of me inside your eyes.
--

So it's 11:07pm, and I should be doing geog but my brain has gladly decided to switch off on me. So I'm waiting for 红白囍事's 大结局 to go on xinmsn so I can watch it finally! :) .Tuesday tuition folks are the best.

And I should be doing Chinese - and I guess I've been doing quite a bit of it, but I'm actually starting to think that maybe I didn't start early enough. (I probably didn't). But I have 3 weeks left. And I'm gonna make the best out of these three weeks. I wouldn't be surprised if I was go collapse and just die on the floor after the 31st of May.

我害怕失去你

Got an album to buy! After an extremely long time - now just to see if I can find it.
I need to find something exciting.
i'll make it all up for you
Monday, May 10, 2010 @ 17:41

Today has been a (better) good day.

Chelsea won the Championship
C5 for Chinese = GOT HOPE. - FIRST TIME IN TWO YEARS.
+ I think school helped to break the lonesome monotony.
--

I guess once in a while, you regret what you do. But the linearity of time forces us to accept that y'know what - you can't change it anymore, so just go along with the consequences. And sometimes, despite how fearful you were originally, the consequences don't end up half as bad as you expected them to.

I know this is one day late - but Happy Mother's Day, Mum. You're really the best in the world. :)

To many things to do, too little time! Though really, I think this week should be a good week, so long as we keep on smiling, hopefully. :)

Sometimes, we get more than we bargained for.
Learn to live, because if you don't live now, you may never get the chance.
step three hundred and four.
Sunday, May 9, 2010 @ 18:49

Ignore this post if you wish (actually, you can ignore any post if you wish):

I haven't felt this lost and tired in a long long time. And I believe this is not a good sign. I mean, 2010's been good. Most of the time (for that, I am thankful), just overly monotonous. (I am over punctuating).
--

It's insane. I'm so tired, mentally, I can hardly push myself anymore - and for what? I don't think I'm burning out, just, losing willpower.

Fusion helped a little, I guess. But not enough to pull me through the entire year.

Not my strength, but yours.
Draw me back to You, please.

I need to remember why, what and who I'm doing this for - that this is not meaningless and one day I'll know. But soon, I'll get sick of telling myself this again and again and again. Remember what I love, remember what made me fall in love with this world. And what I'll get to do post O's (toy-box, polaroids, travelling, dad's camera, music, read, tv).

I think it's so sad the world gives us so much, I'm already so fortunate and I'm doing nothing but grumbling about how tired I am while others fight for their lives, worry about their next meal. Perspective is important - but you're forever trapped in your own world. You'll never have the ability to understand someone else so fully as how you know yourself.

Stop for a while, and take a step back.
Dream big, go far.
This life's mine to make.

(Someone teach me how to strike a balance?).
two/four.
Saturday, May 8, 2010 @ 13:06

During CG:

"Sex sells"
"Sex sells everything!"
"YEAH. EVEN ICE CREAM".

@#$%. This world is so screwed up.

22 days. Push Hannah, Push.

dear you (1), keep the faith - you're so much more than you make yourself out to be and it pains me to see how much you batter yourself down, and how much more you have and what you're wasting.
dear you (2) - you've been gone for a while, i barely miss you anymore, but it's good to know you're still the same. you still make me feel so happy, you still matter so much to me, probably the most in the world.

My cousin's party - 6 year olds are so innocent. "I wish for me to have a happy family". Awwww. And she also told me I couldn't date till I was 18 or else I'd get pregnant too early. Oh well.
break.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010 @ 22:12

This week has been nothing short of exhausting, and we're only halfway down.

I need Your supernatural strength, please?
And I need to find my way back to you.
--

"Huh! Why the actors so terrible!"
"Is this the show the woman burn the guy in the flat one?"

I forgot to bring back my entire pencil case, apparently. So I'm just reading many many 好作文s. Though I should be doing more, ugh. Chinese is so tiring, really. :/ And there's NAFPA tomorrow, like I ain't tired enough.

To do before next Thursday:
2 Profi Badges.
Housekeeping Clause.

"Should I stumble again, I'm caught in Your grace".

It's sickening that Chinese O's are the only thought in my brain. I don't know if that's even usual. My brain should be more moderated, and my English standard better not drop because I'll have no time to save it (@#$%).

I live for post Os.
I live for post Os.
I live for post Os.

Dear friends, please endure.
I hear in my mind.
Monday, May 3, 2010 @ 13:31

I haven't walked down an aisle in a long, long time, I'm pretty excited actually. After I complete my mash-up, and find something to wear (after the 31st of May).

Been following local shows recently, just because of the incessant lack of other shows to watch, and the internet buffer speed is extremely, extremely slow. (@#$%). I've been loading 偷心大圣PS男, since morning and it's only loaded two parts completely. (It's 1:34pm now).

And, I've kinda left all my work to today, except Chinese. I think Flickr will kill me - staring at gorgeous photos all day long, and hoping one day, one day I'll be remotely close to their talent. Sometimes I really wish school was like this - after the syllabus has been taught, I'd love to just stay at home and study at my own pace. I'll go back to school twice a week, maybe.

I haven't seen anything interesting in a while too though.

I've only cried twice about missing people. The first was when you left. The second, when I realised how sad I was to have to leave behind these awesome juniors in two weeks. That sucks, big time. And as long as I'm still in school, I'll try to talk to them as frequently as I can, but that doesn't stop the fact that I'll be gone next year.

I think I'm gonna take a nap, then go to Vivo for dinner. If I'm up for it.
(Oh, by the way, did you know that 45 pointers can't get into Oxford? And they're not just 45 pointers, they're super achiever 45 pointers. IB oh IB. And I probably won't get anywhere close to 45!)
dizzle dazzle.
Saturday, May 1, 2010 @ 18:27

I love long weekends!
--

Honestly, I've got nothing new to say. It's the same old, same old - except that Os are in a month and I'm feeling aosetoushotus. Oh! I found a rather nice photo spot around my house, except that I don't know if it's even legal to step on.

Mm. I don't know where I'm going or what I'm feeling. But I know what I'm part of, and that's given me enough direction to move forward, which is kinda sad, but oh well. OH YES. Mel's wedding is in like, a month +, just after Chinese Os and I think I may just die from writing scores, arranging, practicing and performing. And picking out something good enough to wear. And this is "do chinese intensively" month.

Many many birthdays in May, hate having to find birthday presents though. I'll be going to church tomorrow early in the morning to do some work before playing for Mel (@#$%!). But I'm thankful for this opportunity la, cuz like I've always wanted to play @ a wedding. :)

'Rents in Europe, JEALOUS MUCH.